Not exactly fine art, but not quite comics

https://www.rockwell-center.org/student-research/the-artist-and-the-cartoonist/

Not exactly fine art, not quite comics, Pettibon and Dzama helped create a space for new kinds of work to be made, work that is both comics and art.

Another identity crisis of sorts... I guess I've resolved the issue of being a musician and an artist simultaneously and the conclusion I've come to is: you can't do both at the same time, successfully and professionally.

Now, the dilemma is between art and comics.

“Try not to limit yourself or label yourself. You are not a brand. That’s a big thing in schools right now- teaching people how to brand themselves to optimize their earning potential. I personally would like to see people fight this.”

Having written a few genre specific (sci and western) scripts for comics, I found that I'm totally uninterested in drawing them. In general, drawing genre comics kind of disgusts me. It's weird because I can appreciate them, but making them doesn't feel right to me.

He states comics are ‘debased by the nature of their audience’, and then goes on to express frustration about the small art world and a desire to go outside of the gallery system.

I guess I don't like writing fiction. Perhaps I'm just no good at it yet. In general I can appreciate fiction, but I guess I don't really like fiction either. I rarely read any besides comics.

Though, manga and indie comics (and really indie style manga) seem like a beacon. But there, I don't see any potential for financial success. But perhaps that's just shutting myself down. Shutting down my true self for practical reasons that don't exist in the first place. Echos of my parents delusions that artists can't be financially successful.

I want to be true to myself. To make work that I can be proud of and that I love and that expresses me and will help me find my fame and fortune and place in the world, in the art world, in the real world.

In general, I do like:

Anatomy
Figure drawing
Porn
Erotic Art
Comics
Manga
Superhero comics
violent comics
Illustration
Brandy wine school
Painting
Video games graphics
video game art
Graphic Design
poetry
non-fiction
Indie Comics
fashion

In general, I don't care for:

Cartoons
Autobio comics
Art comics in a naive drawing style
conceptual art (except Felix Gonzalez Torres)
performance art
dance
fiction books
contemporary abstract art
sculpture
caricature

In general, I like to make:

drawings
paintings
music
comics*

*are kind of a pain in the ass to make right now, perhaps because I'm having such a hard time with writing and trying to fit myself into the mold of a traditional comics artist.